duh. how did i forget?
Nov. 30th, 2002 10:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bellapalmerai can't believe i didn't write about this yet. duh.
i got an email from justin today saying how he wanted us to at least be talking and not hating each other and such but he wasn't ready to be friends again quite yet. we talked and straightened some stuff out (i got stuff off my chest, he admitted some stuff he did wrong and so did i) and we are not friends yet - neither of us is ready, but we are not enemies so that makes my life easier i mean it won't be ultra awkward now when i see him, even though i don't know how i'm going to react when i see him but at least there won't be hate-tension or whatever. fortunately i get back 8 days before he does so yeah. so i think this is a step in the right direction and the rest is up to God to see where it goes from here. it was so weird telling justin i wasn't ready to be friends yet, it was like it wasn't me saying it... it's so not typically myself to admit that, but i did and it was for the best ya know? and yes i cried. that's a good thing, don't worry.
i got an email from justin today saying how he wanted us to at least be talking and not hating each other and such but he wasn't ready to be friends again quite yet. we talked and straightened some stuff out (i got stuff off my chest, he admitted some stuff he did wrong and so did i) and we are not friends yet - neither of us is ready, but we are not enemies so that makes my life easier i mean it won't be ultra awkward now when i see him, even though i don't know how i'm going to react when i see him but at least there won't be hate-tension or whatever. fortunately i get back 8 days before he does so yeah. so i think this is a step in the right direction and the rest is up to God to see where it goes from here. it was so weird telling justin i wasn't ready to be friends yet, it was like it wasn't me saying it... it's so not typically myself to admit that, but i did and it was for the best ya know? and yes i cried. that's a good thing, don't worry.
