i could do this piece by piece

[bellapalmera]

but i'm doing it all at once.

4:57 pm...
why do i set myself up for failure?

9:05 pm...
i'm living proof
that you can feel
happy
and
the greatest pain you've ever known
at the _{exact same time.}

11:58 pm...
tyler says i'm uptight. if only he knew that i am just that way around him. BUT I CAN'T EXACTLY TELL HIM THAT NOW CAN I!!!!!!!

~~~returning to the present~~~

there are so many things i am afraid to tell him. i just want to tell him how wonderful he is and how he's my best friend and he's helped me tremendously. but i guess i never will.