hung my head in shame and refused to take blame for the darkness i know i've let win

[bellapalmera]

well, shoot.

so this whole justin thing. after talking to him, i realized that the underlying cause of this whole problem is my fault.

i thought i'd done something to make him stop caring. at the origin of these thoughts i was wrong, but i didn't know. so i took it out on him; and in doing so, treated him as such that he did end up caring less. if i had just opened my mouth from the start, this whole stupid thing would have been avoided.

and he says there's more to talk about, that it's hard to explain though. i think i'm nervous.

oh and let's not forget that i saw him today. with my own two eyes, for about five seconds. if i had left five minutes earlier, i could have avoided the pain that plagued me for the rest of the night.

i need to talk to tyler about this, simply because he is geographically nearby. this cannot occur, however, when his little cronies are around. that was mean... they're my so called friends too, ya know.

i need to talk to God about this. its such an easy thing to say, yet such a difficult thing to do.

there are two things that mainly occur when i am upset. i run, and i drive fast.

tonight, i ran. and tonight, i drove fast.