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letting the demons out
Jun. 23rd, 2002 11:57 pmSORRY IF THIS POSTS 234983274 TIMES, LJ IS STUPID.
once again i am not wearing my glasses, because i am supposed to be sleeping, because i have to get up in seven hours. so if i spell something wrong, sue me.
yesterday was really cool. remember how i kept complaining that i had to talk to tyler? well i did. that wasn't necessarily the "cool" part cause it was really weird. i didn't cry, but the tears were there. at the end it got awkward so i just stood up and gave him a big hug, which he returned. then he left.
then i cried.
i called justin to tell him that i was going to his house early, and i ended up totally losing it. i hung up, totally broke into hysterics for like exactly a minute, and somehow justin had the ESP to know when i was done because he called me back right then to tell me he was coming over. by the time he got here i was like fine, but we definitely talked for a while and i cried a little more and stuff. but that one minute of hysterics, i don't know where it came from but it totally freed whatever wild bird of emotions i'd been holding captive for so long. and i really appreciated justin's visit. i ended up hanging with him and some other friends for the rest of the day, which was a lot of fun, but the important thing is i finally got this whole stupid crap over with!!!!! :)
once again i am not wearing my glasses, because i am supposed to be sleeping, because i have to get up in seven hours. so if i spell something wrong, sue me.
yesterday was really cool. remember how i kept complaining that i had to talk to tyler? well i did. that wasn't necessarily the "cool" part cause it was really weird. i didn't cry, but the tears were there. at the end it got awkward so i just stood up and gave him a big hug, which he returned. then he left.
then i cried.
i called justin to tell him that i was going to his house early, and i ended up totally losing it. i hung up, totally broke into hysterics for like exactly a minute, and somehow justin had the ESP to know when i was done because he called me back right then to tell me he was coming over. by the time he got here i was like fine, but we definitely talked for a while and i cried a little more and stuff. but that one minute of hysterics, i don't know where it came from but it totally freed whatever wild bird of emotions i'd been holding captive for so long. and i really appreciated justin's visit. i ended up hanging with him and some other friends for the rest of the day, which was a lot of fun, but the important thing is i finally got this whole stupid crap over with!!!!! :)
